Unforeseen Miracles

I call my wife and kids into a cozy living room.  I'm seated on a love seat.  I feel nervous but hopeful.  There is a bed across from me. Amy walks into the room first.  She sits down across from me on the edge of the bed.  Her eyes stare at the floor.  She looks…

The Ranch (Part 2)

The ranch is an amazing place.  Again, the real name is the John Volken Academy.  Click hereto learn more about their program.  Above are the "addicts" I had the privilege of being around, learning from, and getting to know.  I'm third from the left in the middle (yellow button down). Do any of us look…

The Ranch (Part 1)

Zach and I walk toward the horse stalls.  He towers over me.  I stop and take a good look around.  It's a beautiful and peaceful place.  All the landscaping is manicured nicely.  There are pretty, fresh flowers around the courtyard.  I can see the outline of the San Tan Mountains off in the distance. It…

A Change of Heart

Carson ends up driving me to get something to eat.  He calls one of his work buddies to meet us there. The last thing I want is to talk to anybody.  I'm in no state of mind to discuss anything about my life, especially with someone I don't know.  Carson has a habit of doing things…

JAIL (Part 5)

The sergeant arrives.  He tells me if I don't cooperate, I'll end up in the Hole or arrested.  I look straight in his eyes and retort, "YOU are the ones not cooperating.  Today, I met with the judge and he ORDERED my release, and you have the audacity to disobey his order and keep me…

JAIL (Part 4)

I arrive back at jail, again. My new "friends" don't believe that I didn't get released until I show them the paperwork. Two of them stun me by offering to bail me out.  Both try hard, but things fall through for various reasons. I have a video call with a close, dear friend, Jeremy Bosco.  He…

JAIL (Part 3)

I've been locked up for 3 weeks now. I stay out of trouble for the most part.  I'm always respectful to the detention officers.  They're respectful back. I spend my time doing, well, nothing. There's nothing to do in hell. I'm either lying on my bunk thinking, sitting somewhere thinking, or walking laps around the pod thinking. …

JAIL (Part 2)

Durango Jail is hell on earth.  At least it is for me. I don't sleep at all. There's a tiny window in our cell. I watch it get light every morning. I spend all hours of the night pacing in a small confined area or walking around the pod literally looking for crumbs to eat off…

JAIL (Part 1)

The time finally arrives to be transported to the real jail.  My hands are cuffed and feet are chained.  I'm herded along with the others into the back of an armored looking vehicle. The back is divided into 2 cages.  One side is for males and the other for females.  We are packed in.  There are…

Dark Days

I'm lying on our couch downstairs.  I've been there for hours. It's late in the evening and there's a knock at the door.  Next thing I know, my business partner is standing in our living room.  That is not unusual as we are the closest of friends.  My wife and kids are all in there…

The Storm Clouds Gather

Financially, I feel fortunate.  Our primary company provides nicely for our immediate needs...and wants.  But, my partner and I are thinking longer term.  We want a company that will set us for life and then some.  We have an idea and it's been marinating for some time. We meet with 2 brilliant IT professionals who…

Drug Induced Psychosis

I’m kneeling down in a dried up creek bed. I’m at Ironwood National Forest. The area above the creek bed slopes upward and is dense with trees.  Bare tree limbs with no leaves hang down everywhere making it very difficult to traverse up the slope. It’s a comfortable, quiet night, about 2-3 o'clock in the…

More Amphetamines Please!

Tolerance?  WHAT?  What are you talking about? Like I said, you've built up a tolerance for stimulant medication. Would you mind explaining to me what tolerance is? Tolerance is when a person no longer responds to a drug in a way that person initially responded.  So, it takes more of the drug, higher doses, to…

An Epiphany! 

It's March 2011. Our family moves from Kentucky to Arizona. It will still be two years until I discover the strange, life-altering, pile of skulls over our wall. For now, it’s an exciting time in our lives full of anticipation and renewal.  We take with us all the good, love, and amazing experiences from Kentucky as we…

The Pile of Skulls

It's July 2013.  It's a beautiful Sunday morning about 5:30am in Chandler, Arizona. I'm up gazing out our back window into our beautifully landscaped backyard, noticing the crystal clear blue water of our pool glistening in the rising sun. Everything is quiet and peaceful. The family is still sleeping.  l feel compelled to walk out our back…

A Charmed Life

Prior to the beginning of my epic collapse, our family lives a charmed life.  I enjoy success in all my business ventures and we always have the things that make life comfortable and balanced.  My three oldest daughters say their childhood and growing up years are like a fairy tale, and they are. My wife is…

Below Rock Bottom

It's December 13, 2015.  I've just woken up freezing cold and laying on top of an old bookcase in my makeshift shelter in a secluded field.  I'm homeless.  I have no money, no phone, and no transportation.  I've lost everything in my life including my beautiful wife and 6 amazing children, my multi-million dollar business, all my income, close and dear friends, and my dream home.